As Bernardo Moya, the founder of “The Best You,” my journey has always been about exploring the boundaries of human potential and seeking ways to become a better version of myself. This pursuit is not just a professional endeavor, but a deeply personal one. It’s about identifying my purpose, understanding my true self, and uncovering ways to enhance my life and those around me. In this quest, I’ve delved into various methods and practices, but two experiences stand out for their profound impact: microdosing and ayahuasca.
These practices, often shrouded in mystery and controversy, caught my attention for their potential to unlock parts of the mind and soul that seemed unreachable by conventional means. Microdosing, the practice of taking minute amounts of psychedelics, promised a subtle yet significant enhancement in creativity, mood, and focus. Ayahuasca, a powerful brew known for its spiritual and introspective experiences, beckoned with the promise of deep, transformative healing and insight.
In sharing my journey with these practices, I hope to shed light on their potential, backed by both personal anecdotes and scientific research. It’s a narrative of self-exploration, where the subtle daily shifts of microdosing blend with the profound revelations of ayahuasca, guiding me towards a greater understanding of what it means to be the best version of oneself.
The Deep Dive – Ayahuasca
Transition to Ayahuasca Experience
For as long as I can remember, I’ve always felt there was more to me than meets the eye. A sense of being an ‘old soul’, as if my spirit had traversed through many lifetimes, always lingered within me. This intrinsic belief led me to ayahuasca, a journey into the depths of my soul I could never have anticipated. My understanding of spiritual awakening was abstract at best, but I was driven by a deep-seated curiosity and a yearning to connect with a part of myself that seemed just out of reach.
Setting, Expectations, and Preparation
I approached my ayahuasca experience with a mix of reverence and uncertainty. I decided to do it in the home of Ayahuasca in Peru, in Cusco, a magical place itself. The setting was a tranquil retreat, far removed from the bustle of everyday life, where the sounds of nature provided a comforting backdrop to the journey ahead. My expectations were open-ended; I desired an awakening but didn’t confine my experience to any preconceived notions. Preparation involved mental and physical cleansing, for over a month where I stuck to a diet of only fish, vegetables and no alcohol it was about aligning my body and mind with the respect and humility such a profound experience deserved. I went into it completely open minded and as a dear loved one said “trusting the plant”.
The Ayahuasca Journey
The onset of ayahuasca’s effects was gradual yet unmistakable. The brew, earthy and potent, seemed to connect me to an ancient wisdom as it took hold. Time and reality blurred as vivid visual and auditory hallucinations unfolded, each wave bringing forth a cascade of emotions and revelations. This journey lasted what seemed like an eternity, yet was contained within five or six hours.
Throughout this odyssey, I encountered layers of my consciousness that had been previously veiled. Memories, long-suppressed emotions, and unacknowledged truths surfaced, each demanding recognition and acceptance. The experience was a confrontation with the self, both daunting and liberating. It was an emotional spectrum, ranging from moments of amazing fulfillment to intervals of intense fear. By the end of it, I felt as though I had been reborn.
Profound Spiritual Awakening
The most transformative aspect of the experience was the profound spiritual awakening it catalyzed. It felt as if the ayahuasca peeled back the layers of my being, revealing a core of untapped potential, wisdom, and empathy. This awakening was not fleeting; it instilled lasting changes in my self-awareness, creativity, and emotional understanding, resonating with the experiences of many others who have walked this path. After this experience, for the first time, I harbored no fear of dying and found myself thoroughly believing in reincarnation.
Therapeutic Potential and Purging
Moreover, the experience underscored ayahuasca’s therapeutic potential. The intense purging, both physical and emotional, felt like a release of toxins and past traumas, leaving me cleansed and renewed. Such a cathartic release, I realized, could be invaluable in healing and personal growth, offering insights into life’s purpose and aiding in making difficult decisions.
Comparing and Contrasting
Discovery of Psilocybin and Microdosing
It was later in my life when I discovered psilocybin, a natural substance that quickly captured my fascination. Despite its historical and cultural significance, my encounter with it felt like uncovering a hidden treasure. Psilocybin, for me, was more than just a ‘drug’; it was a key to unlocking aspects of the mind that remained unexplored. And it was through microdosing that I began to appreciate its subtler, yet profound impacts on my daily life.
Microdosing: Subtle Daily Enhancements
Microdosing introduced a new rhythm to my existence. The changes were not earth-shattering but were significant in their subtlety. Each small dose seemed to fine-tune my perception, creativity, and emotional balance. It was like adding a new color to my daily palette, one that made everything a bit brighter, a bit more vivid. This practice brought a sense of calmness, an improved ability to focus, and a deeper connection with my creative self. I found it particularly fascinating how such small quantities of a natural substance could bring about these changes.
Ayahuasca: Profound Transformational Journey
In contrast, ayahuasca was like a profound journey to the core of my being. If microdosing was about enhancing daily life, ayahuasca was about transforming it. It provided a space for deep introspection, spiritual awakening, and confronting inner truths that I had not faced before. The experience was intense, transcending the boundaries of ordinary consciousness and offering a glimpse into the depths of the soul.
Personal Insights and Contributions to Well-being
Both practices contributed uniquely to my overall well-being and perspective on life. Microdosing was a gentle, ongoing process of self-improvement and mindfulness. It fit seamlessly into my daily routine, providing clarity and emotional balance. On the other hand, ayahuasca offered a dramatic shift in perspective, a reawakening. It was a pivotal moment that reshaped my understanding of myself and my place in the world.
Each, in its own right, has been a tool for personal growth and exploration. Microdosing has been a consistent, nurturing presence, while ayahuasca was a powerful catalyst for change. Together, they have shaped my journey towards self-discovery and the pursuit of becoming the best version of myself.
Conclusion: Embracing the Power of Psychedelics and the Universal Language of Love
As I reflect on my journey through microdosing and ayahuasca, I am reminded of the powerful documentaries that have illuminated the world of psychedelics. Works like “The Power of Fungi” on Netflix and the adaptation of Michael Pollan’s “How to Change Your Mind” provide profound insights into these substances and their potential. They not only explore the scientific and therapeutic aspects but also delve into the spiritual and existential dimensions that these substances can unlock.
Particularly striking is the use of psychedelics in assisting those with terminal cancer and those nearing the end of life. These stories highlight the ability of these substances to dissolve the barriers of ego, revealing a profound interconnectedness with the world. Patients often recount experiences of immense peace, understanding, and acceptance, reshaping their perception of life and death.
I encourage everyone to do their own research and explore these avenues with an open mind and heart. Documentaries, scientific studies, and personal testimonies are excellent starting points for understanding the multifaceted nature of these substances. However, it’s essential to remember that my journey is deeply personal and might differ from others’. It’s crucial to approach these experiences with respect, understanding, and, most importantly, under safe and guided circumstances.
In conclusion, my journey with psychedelics has been one of discovery, healing, and profound love. It has reshaped my understanding of myself and my connection to the world. As we continue to explore the depths of human consciousness, let’s do so with the intention of learning, growing, and embracing the universal language of love that binds us all.